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On Thursday, my dad asked me to give him Reiki. He sneezed at some point and thinks he may have cracked a rib. He's been in so much pain, he's game to try Reiki again! I sent him a distant [treatment] on Thursday evening, and it was very long. His whole energy field generally crackles with pain. My mom let me know that the distance relaxed him and that he was able to drift into sleep. On Friday, he came to the house for a treatment. It was very intense for me.

He can't lie down. He sat on my couch, eyes closed tightly, brow furrowed. I had been reading the Course [ACIM: A Course In Miracles] text that morning, and not wanting to get myself in the way [of the Reiki treatment], but clearly doing that, I asked HS [Holy Spirit] if it was possible, I was praying for a miracle for my dad.

The Reiki was deep and intense. My dad's energy literally started pulsing and shifting under my hands, as if it was coming to life again. I watched him, flinch and jerk in response to it. I kept [using a Reiki symbol], and surrendering my needs to HS [Holy Spirit]. Well, it was so cool. My ACIM [A Course in Miracles] lesson that morning was "I am upset because I see something that is not there." At one point, I had my hands on the back of his head and neck, and it was as if our whole history together opened up for me energetically. I don't know any other way of describing it. But it was as if I was being offered a glimpse of the Truth of our relationship rather than all the ways I had perceived it. Well, in this glimpse, I experienced how clearly my dad loved me and that there was never anything between us but absolute unconditional love from him for me. And Ellen, in that moment, my knees buckled and I caught a cry in my throat, and the tears just fell silently down my cheeks. I kissed his bald spot and kept giving him Reiki. Felt like that session was mine more than his. What I realized later was that my need for a miracle for him was really about me wanting to please him. He came to me for Reiki. I would be the best daughter ever in his eyes if he was healed of all his pain as a result of the Reiki. I thanked Spirit for the wondrous experience and surrendered once again my need to be in there 'fixing', because he was coming again tomorrow.

This morning he told me that after he left yesterday he felt very relaxed, but then he sneezed again and the pain came back. He said, "so listen, I just want you to put your hands on my ribcage here and heal that area". I chuckled and suggested we let Reiki run the show!

I got caught up in watching him. My lesson for the day, "I see only the past in..." I asked HS to allow me to see my dad how he is, in this present moment. I put my hands on his shoulders and had the most amazing experience in a long time, if ever, with Reiki. My whole being and his is charged with this absolutely brilliant light. It was intense and slow motion, but I felt like I was suspended in a dazzling, energetically charged pool of light. It was so beatific, if I may be so bold as to say, like at least 540* because I have never felt that kind of light. And this is only ten minutes into the treatment. Clearly it is done, but I continue to give him Reiki because I'm so blissed out and 'just trying to believe what I just experienced. I realize that Reiki just offered me both our Truth; that we are that pure light.

I ask Reiki, "How can this be, when I am so in the way, 'wanting to fix here?" And that voice in my head whispers, "You loved him selflessly". So there I am, bubbling over and bawling and my dad is in a complete trance. Suddenly, he bolts awake and asks "'we done Lis?" I asked him how the treatment was for him. He says, "Very interesting. I felt this profound relaxation come over me. Different." Then he gets up, complains that he's freezing and leaves after loving up the kids. He's coming again tomorrow.

So of course, I just can't accept the experience, but need to analyze and understand it. What occurs to me, and you can feel this out, that although I may have started off wanting 'to fix' [to heal him], that by admitting and surrendering that need to HS, that perhaps today my need to help him was truly unconditional, absolute selfless love, that we were both allowed that experience of the Light. I don't even know how it affected him, 'just my own experience. But that is the Truth. He may be suffering awfully in this physical present, but WOW! ultimately he is a ball of super charged Light! And so am I!

... I am seeing so many new and wondrous Truths! This journey is truly, truly remarkable!

--- - submitted December 2005, by Lisa Borkovich, RM

Reference to Dr. David Hawkins' Map of Consciousness